Heart From A Jar

Without you

2012-01-19T14:37:00.000+08:00

When a someone doesn't reply, it doesn't mean that she don't care.

Can't look, so blind.
Stay strong.

"Without you, the game will never be the same.
I am lost, I am vain.
I will never be the same without you.
I won't run, I won't fly.
I will never make it right without you.
I really miss you.
Life has never been the same.
I don't laugh that much.
This can't be right.
Paralyzed."

Not your ghost anymore

2012-01-06T01:11:00.001+08:00

I've learnt to live half alive.

The time of my life.
Perhaps the end of the chapter.
Finding a excuse just to hold on. Finding other excuses just to let go.
Like I always said, when time is ripe, I'll let go.

That day, that night.
I choose to keep quiet.
Walking away as if nothing happen.
It's killing me inside silently, a voice in my head tells me that the apple isn't mine.
I'll look for a better apple.
I'll be happy as my lookalike when I grow up.
My lookalike is married with someone she loves . I will too, I'm her lookalike.

Changes can take place within a second, don't even mention 3 years.

3 years, I've wasted a lot of my time on it .

You're happy now, I should let go and carry on with my life.

I'm not done with my task, once I'm done I'll look for what I want in life.
Maybe I wanna go around the world. Maybe I wanna go somewhere quiet.
Just a quiet life.

Still finding excuses to leave. Still unsure of what I want in life.

I'm drunk in this pic, that's why my eyes are small.

Dear Dragon

2011-12-31T04:52:00.000+08:00

Our dragon is finally 17 years old!
Hahaha, wanted to give him a surprise. End up he discovered.
What a pity.
Anyways, he must be very very touched. Laptop cooler and cute pink card.
Where to find this kind of friends?

All of us will stay together even we're old and valuable right? :D

Lastly, This is what I call food. :D

When time is right

2011-12-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

Changes are bound to have in life.

You always expect the unexpected.

Holding on takes alot of courage.

When time is right, I'll leave.

There's no end to it if I continue staying, it's not really what I want in life.

My background, my culture. Sorry, it's really not my kind of environment.

I'm not after any fame, I just want a simple life.

A dinner with family, a weekend out shopping with my mum, a night out going out with my dad to temple or helping him with some other stuffs. That's what I want.

Simple things in life makes things alot easier.

Regarding the food, it's alright if it's left out in the cold.

The snow doesn't make any difference anyways.

I want that sequin sneakers from ALDO. =D

Irene Tan

2011-12-20T03:11:00.000+08:00

Yea, her birthday might be over but it's ok. I don't need to dedicate a post for her just on her birthday right?

Soon, we're gonna be knowing each other for 10 years. That's pretty long.
I'm amazed.
We don't need to go through rituals so we will become sisters.
We don't need "I friend you, I friend you not" kind of stuffs.
Like what she said; family, best friend, sister.

The one who accompany me when I'm in my toughest time.
We still have a few more 10 years to go. I'm looking forward to it.

Anticipate

2011-12-18T02:20:00.000+08:00

If love is too beautiful, there's nothing to anticipate.
The light didn't appear though.
At least, from far I know what I'm doing.
Any step that I've taken, the more I hope that I'm slower than before.
I'm taking a step back.
Somethings just need to be conceal to prevent it from being reveal.
Future is a big word. Too far away.

Sometimes I just feel like having a drink with a old friend by the beach.
Drink down my sorrows, maybe just grumble about life and rant about the devils.
Seems like I have not found one yet.
I like to drink, at the very least, I have a reason to not remember anything.

I hope everything will be fine.

The time isn't right.

2011-12-03T10:10:00.007+08:00

Time isn't right.
Opportunities is what we lack.
Fate isn't on our side.
I swear I'll be good.
Right here, for now.
The rainy days.

Aren't you tired?
Cause' I am.

It's about how you learn to walk in the rain.
It's about how you learn to dance in the rain.
It's not about how you cry in the rain.

She will be loved.

2011-11-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

You're a skyscraper. I'm a playground.
The saddening truth that the mask of the day hides it well.
Why should I be the one comprimising?

She will be loved. Boyce Avenue got a charming voice. I'm in love with him now.

FAITH

2011-11-28T21:56:00.000+08:00

The reason for holding is faith.
A simple word but a complicated definition.
I believe hard work pays off everything.
The sun will shine and the light will be bright, again.

PizzaHut

2011-11-27T22:24:00.001+08:00

It's a blessing to know you guys. :)

Retaining memories

2011-11-24T00:54:00.001+08:00

Memories..
They are important aren't they?
Found the videos that I used to take in class.
Hahaha. It's really funny.
After a year, everyone changed.
It's something that everyone need to adapt to.
Playing games together.
Eating snacks behind teachers backs.
Wow. Come to think of it, it was really a thrill.
I miss those times.
I miss 4E3.

Waiting; a long process

2011-11-17T01:15:00.001+08:00

A one day training/ camp was conducted today.
The smiles on their faces told me they're happy, I guess.
A cadet asked me why I wanna become a VI.
In the past, I will not wanna reply that question.
I'm sure of my answer now.

It's not about contribution, perhaps it's about commitment.

Wish you were here, maybe things will be different.

Greed

2011-11-15T20:37:00.000+08:00

What makes a person changed?

When you have a crystal, you're happy about it.
After a period of time, you see other girls in the street having diamonds.
You feel inferior then.
Looking at the current financial situation, there is no way you can afford a diamond.
Being human beings, fate differ.
You switch on the tv. CrimeWatch.
You got a idea. Steal.
That's greed.

Human beings are all greedy.
I'm one of them too.
I have one pretty ring.I still want more.
Isn't it greed?

It's amazing how a child can be contented with a sweet.
It's amazing how a man can be mesmerized by a woman.
It's amazing how a woman can cry for a man for days.
Life, is that amazing.

Monday Blues

2011-11-15T01:59:00.000+08:00

Twinkle twinkle little star.
How I wonder how you are.

Happy Birthday Siti!
You're 17! I miss you.

Serious monday blues.
Bought 2 new storybooks. Still in the midst of completing it.

In some critical moments, the answer is obvious and rings louder than anything.
Take it that I'm deaf and I don't wanna know the answer.

I need to do more shopping.

You might not understand but I gave you the best of me, and after you left nothing was ever the same..

~The Best of Me; Nicholas Sparks

My idol, he warms my heart with his stories and makes me cry as if the world is ending soon.

The one who got away

2011-11-14T01:11:00.000+08:00

You intruded my space. You are fine.
This feeling sucks. It's alright, if my lookalike can, I can too.

And in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
All these money can't buy me a time machine,

Can't replace you with a million rings,
I should've told you what you meant to me,
'Cause now I pay the price

How are you?

Songs that breathe

2011-11-10T18:11:00.000+08:00

Just look at the way he sings...
Isn't it heartwarming..?
Looking forward to the day when he's gonna hold a concert in sg.

誰知道我心裡藏著什麼越愛你越期待你忘記我自私的逃避的一堆借口沒有誰能夠給誰永恆的承諾
我心裡剩下什麼矛盾的祝福希望你聽懂能給你更多的人不是我至少我還能遠遠的陪著你走到最後

Blindfold

2011-11-10T02:54:00.000+08:00

Once you're blinded, you're gonna be blinded.
It took me one day to realise what's happening.

It's nice to have a friend that you can call at night and talk about anything under the sun with her.
I just annoyed 'lala' just now. 3 possibilities.
Fate, Coincidence. As for the other one....

Life is miserable enough.
I'm gonna get more Nicholas Sparks and Low Kay Hwa books to heal my scar.
Fate control us. Destiny determines where we belong. Life is just a stage.

Pretend that you don't know anything. I don't wanna take the risk again. I'm fine like that.

Faith

2011-11-05T04:22:00.000+08:00

As long as you're happy, it's alright if I'm the one being unhappy.
Things can't go wrong.

Dear Fairy Godfather

2011-11-02T01:13:00.000+08:00

Dear Fairy Godfather,
I know you won't ly to me.
You asked me to wait. I did accordingly.
You won't ly to me and ask me to give up halfway right?
I've wasted a few years of my life just because you asked me to hold on.
I believe you. I believe you that's why I treated those passerbys as if they're nothing.
You won't let my efforts go down the drain.

Finally

2011-11-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

FLY

2011-11-01T01:57:00.000+08:00

Sigh.
1 and 2. 1 and 2. :(

“It's possible to go on, no matter how impossible it seems, and that in time, the grief . . . lessens. It may not go away completely, but after a while it's not so overwhelming.”
― Nicholas Sparks, Dear John

Fortune

2011-10-30T01:09:00.000+08:00

Yeah. I win 7 times of reversi against an adult. Yeah.
Sense of achievement.

Anyway, tomorrow I'm gonna buy 4D.
First price is mine. YES! :D

Fear

2011-10-28T20:16:00.000+08:00

And the show ends tonight.
O Levels are gonna end soon.
Meaning my darlings are gonna be released from hell. Yeah.

From time to time, I will still get attracted by some lyrics.
Currently I'm listening to Lollipop F (DANCE). HAHAHA.
I gonna get my hands on the album... By this week? :D
Not to forget songs that touches your heart, as if it just expressed your emotions explicitly...
Like 田馥甄's : 還是要幸福.

Anyway, this blog is just a place where I rant. According to the statistics I get... Not much people really visit. So, I guess it's alright I just pour out my feelings on and off.

Images flashed across my mind. There's nothing much I can do, if it wants to stay I'll let it stay. If not, I'll just forget about it. I've been keeping quiet about it. But this doesn't mean that I forget about it.
Yes, I avoid that topic. I don't like that topic. And up till now, I'm still unsure about my decision.
I'm just waiting for the sun to come out. I know it will, I don't know when. I should have know that it's gonna come, I was hinted, 2 times. Damn, naive uh? It's a deep scar. Very deep.. Since then, I guess it just went along with me. Life's no bed of roses, you don't get what you want without any effort. I had a picture perfect memory, but not a picture perfect ending. Passerby were there, I didn't appreciate them. To me, they're just like a log, whereby you get to hold on to when you get lost in the middle of the ocean. That song, I didn't play it again. What happened was just a spell. I'll be trueful to you when I don't feel painful anymore.

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